So I finally got around to coloring that Barton Gangsta picture I drew earlier. Dear god, I am going insane, aren't I?
I also felt like adding flavor text....oh god, I can't write like idiots very easily. Playing Saints Row 2 helped...a little....but still. It be wack, yo.
*eye twitch twitch*
Also...I dunno...is it me, or does Blogger do something wonky with image compression? I know my jpegs are clearer than this but somehow they're turning out fuzzy when I upload them on here? =/ Oh well.
My hand hurts. Majorly. This is my first time in awhile doing digital painting....I can see some improvement from say, earlier? *like, compare to my pictures of Rogue and Zero I guess?*
This isn't for any real usage, it's part of a wiki I'm making for a Tegaki RP I'm trying to get up and running called "Orange Star City". It's essentially a future,anime city with a decent militaristic twist (although not, like the sort that RULES WITH AN IRON FIST ala Metropolis or Gundam). Its one of the love childs of my RP universe, as well.
My hand hurts obviously because of drawing/painting the pic of the LTC. I still have more ads like this to make....although hopefully not with complicated looking people. >_>
And that gangsta picture I drew a few posts back is getting colored soon. Yup.
So...I'm here in a Ringling lab again, in the midst of finals week.
I felt like taking a little break. I sketched a drawing that I think I'll use to test out my new Gouache set....
Hopefully I'll finish it.....maybe tonight, tommorow, I dunno. If it turns out crappy, well, I have the lines if I want to slap it into Photoshop or print/Matte Medium to try again....
I bought a 10 dollar backpack from Walmart recently. It was neon green, black, raver awesome, just begged to be decorated on.
So I decided to kill a couple more of my brain cells and did some stencilling.
Yes, that is a Mettool. Megaman= <3. Granted, I screwed up the first time I did the stencil so I had to repaint over it with neon green paint and then redo the black, but I like the grungy green thing that's going on in that corner.
Oh, and the logo.....it's one of my world things. A fake company called "Takayama Labs"...originally was a robot factory, but nowadays in the current version of the world it's a military technology/weapon corporation...and one of my characters was SUPPOSED to be the heir to the company, being the eldest son, but he decided to pursue a military career instead. *cough*Rogue*cough*
Maybe I might add more...but not now. My room needs to ventilate because I was stupid enough to paint in my room? Durrr. It was a 3 in the morning move, ya know.
So, I was cleaning my room (it's all sparkly clean so I don't have any problems over Christmas break or finals week to worry about, ya know), and I found one of my old sketchbooks that I had just finished at the beginning of this year. Flipping through it, it had some pretty amusing pictures, so I thought I'd dump them on here. Some of them you've seen before (the "Take That" pic), others....no, and they're just sketchbook pictures, so if they are well, "important" and all...nah. Don't waste time searching for the meaning of them or any crap like that. Kay?
Slowly I'm working through other sketchbooks....sooo....yep, there will be more. I'm going home for break, so there's PLENTY of stuff to sketch in my city....more than in this boring as dirt retirement town. Yay. Later.
Hi, seriously, do I ever post these things from home? I'm sitting in a Ringling lab right now, after my Media class....thought I'd scan something from my sketches lately.
Okay, so, I was staring at a weaponry book the other day, just doodling stuff outta there...and then it got to the point where I started to doodle beam sabers (ya know, aka "light sabers", swords made out of energy that are used in plenty of places aside from Star Wars....Zero from Megaman X/Megaman Zero uses it as his primary weapon, lol).
I got to thinking....what would each of our characters' beam sabers look like? Maybe?
Yeah, they're crappy...remember I wasn't really trying, lol. I'm fairly pleased with the design for Matt's sword....Rogue's design is also almost there. Zero- eh, I might toy with it some more and as for K, considering that's not my character it's all speculation until his creator sees it? >_>
I might have more stuff later.....I bought some grid paper to play around with maps...base maps....maybe. >_>
(Oh, and I just noticed an error in my notes....in the note about Matt's sword, I meant to say "Takayama Labs custom designed, given to Matt during training with Rogue...."...my handwritten notes, part which you can see on the side of the scan, had a different way of saying it so yeah, I got confused when I transcribed it...oops.)
Good morning...it's an early monday morning, the start of yet another week! Only two more weeks left and then my semester is over, yes!
Anyways...um....here's something I did last night. Not that I really...errr...was enthralled about it, but it WAS requested of sorts, thanks to a certain fellow mentioning it during our long lengthy chats....
All I can say is....what...the...FUCK. This was a little painful to do, as I had to stop myself from dying of laughter in ways....or something like that. These guys normally...don't swing this way.
Well, I guess I COULD just BARELY imagine Matt as the "dumb ass white boy" kid....it's not too much of a stretch with his figure and all. But as for K.....um....YEAHHHH RIGHT. He OBVIOUSLY needs a gun to get his job done, and a baseball cap covering up his spiky hair. Doh.
Anyways...it's not completely done yet. Color is also needed and a background...but....not right now. Give me some time to stop laughing, and or feeling like I just drew something dirty. LOL.
I really hate the holidays....deep down, I really do.
I know, I know, it's supposed to be a time when you're grateful for everything you have, count your blessings, ho ho ho, food, family, etc,etc.
This year though, I can't help but think of well....
This is my first year where I haven't been with my family for Thanksgiving. Today is going to be a strange day as I have to make the ham and yams and rolls and vegetables for my roommate and her friend. (they're making stuff too.)
I can't say that I'm completely buddy buddy with the friend, and my roommate...well....I dunno either. I miss my mother.
Furthermore, the holidays remind me in general, of how few friends I actually have. It's slowly dwindling too, as life happens and we go our seperate ways. I feel like I'm drifting...either that, or standing still alone while the rest of life goes on. People are getting jobs, getting married, having kids...while aside from my education, I'm still the same kid outta high school, with no serious relationships or incredible achievements to really think about.
And the guy in this picture, he was an orphan from a young age. His upbringing wasn't the happiest one. Like me sorta, he isn't very social and he prefers his own company, not always because of his own choice though...he has a lot of self doubt about himself early on in life until some time way later when he's grown and had a (dysfunctional) sort of family...
Hopefully it'll get better when I go home in two weeks, but eh....I don't know, really. You have a good Thanksgiving and holidays if you can though.
My brain is kinda dead today....I spent the past two nights up all night working on homework due. Luckily it's break and I can now sleep peacefully.
However, being brain dead does present the opportunities to do random and pointless drawings of my characters and or other characters? I felt like asking Matt, circa 14-16 when he still looks short, scrawny, and about 12:
"どんな食べ物が好きですか？” (I misspelled "どんな” as ”どなた”... doh, I'm a little rusty and at the time I didn't have access to a dictionary, as I did this on lunch break and then in class during a crit day!)
Or: What kind of food do you like?
He answered (using both pictures and words): "ロンドンのフィッシュ＆チップス” “果物と野菜も” "ケーキも”
Or- "London Fish and Chips." "Fruit and Vegetables." "Cake."
If I get bored more later I may draw other characters about this question, lol. >_>
I remembered that drawing on notebook paper SUCKS, but fuck...I was plotting story for a roleplay while in the student center watching on TV the old-school Superman, not being serious at all....lol.
Ever made an illustration in a class period, roughly....2 and a half hours, give or take?
I can say I have. Fueled by energy drinks, a constant loop of Happy Hardcore and other techno music, (A 99 Red Balloons remix and some Prodigy, mainly...lol), and a love of laser tag and raves.
I like laser tag. I miss Laser Quest and Spookaloo.....=/
LOL. Okay, I'm tired, so I'm gonna shut up now and get some shut eye. Till later, happy to be hardcore. =)
The first one is a project that involved Frankenstein and some element of collage...well....with mine...aside from a color job...it was all collage in Photoshop....
This got a fairly nice review from my teacher...yay....and I didn't kill myself making it. So in the next assignment I decided to try doing it again. This one is an advertisment for a product...in my case I chose one of my favorite things- soccer- and created an advert for the legendary "Telstar" soccer ball....it is what is known as a soccer ball today, you know, black and white ball?
What was amazing about this one is that this took me.....ehhh....4 hours to do. The teacher took two looks at it, and said "You're done."
*jaw drops*
Soooo....right now, the answer to my illustration dilemmas is MAKE IT LOOK PRETTY WITHOUT DRAWING, unfortunately. *sigh* My drawing skills need to catch up ASAP I guess. ASAP may not be fast enough though. Oh well. At least I'm seeming to make SOME amount of progress in this class.
Media class is going okay...I'm getting hammered because of my shakey drawing skills, but there are worse people in that class....I was talking to one guy the other day, and apparently the teacher said flat out to him that he was going to fail the kid because he couldn't make nearly enough progress in a semester for him to pass him, and "I'm doing a service to you by failing you", that sort of bullshit I've heard before.
And my Scottish painting and figure teacher continues to be a total sweetheart. Yup. <3 him, no strings attached, no pressure...it allows me to deflate from my other classes, and just draw for the sake of drawing, ya know? This is the sort of class I miss sometimes, but I go to a school where it's my job to train for a commercial job, not create 'art for the sake of art'. Oh well.
*sigh* Life is tough here sometimes, but it's fine. I'm not as stressed out as I was last semester, and I'm not going to get that stressed out. If I screw up, I screw up. Life will go on either way, I'm not letting failure stop me again.
Okay, so, slapping random stuff from my sketchbook from both the wayyyy past and more recently.
Doodle during a workshop over the summer at a con I was attending...about writing villains and such.
From the same sketchbook but a bit later on in time....I think.
I did this in my sketchbook when I was visiting a friend in New York....just sitting around in a hotel room in the middle of nowhere, watching TV about Army Rangers....
Man, I wish I could say I sketched this stuff lately, but lately I've been busy with my schoolwork/sketching for the sake of learning, unfortunately. *sigh*
Oh my god, I am just so fucking pissed right now. Pissed, and confused. If you don't want to hear profanity and rant, I would suggest not reading this post, okay?
Soooo.....
I had a bad day today, bright and early at 8:30.
Now I told you that the last illustration I do, flat out sucked, and I got a bad crit on it.
So I tried again. I've been trying my damn hardest to listen to what my teacher says.
Well, my damn hardest, apparently, made my teacher say about 4 times during this crit, in front of the ENTIRE FUCKING CLASS:
I can't draw. I'm poor at drawing.
Great. Not only am I still coming off of last semester that I can't ANIMATE, but apparently NOW I CAN'T FUCKING DRAW EITHER???
WHAT. THE. FUCK!???? IF I CAN'T DRAW, WHY THE FUCK WAS I ACCEPTED TO THIS SCHOOL IN THE FIRST PLACE? WHY WAS I ACCEPTED INTO ILLUSTRATION AS A TRANSFER STUDENT WITHOUT TAKING THE INTRO CLASS? WHAT THE FUCK!?
Not only that, but apparently the ONLY way I can get out of this is to "stylize the fuck" out of my stuff. He then proceeded to make a comment about some guy named Gary Baseman and how I shouldn't stylize like that.
(What he is best known for- Teacher's Pet- but he didn't draw this)
(He DID draw this though...)
Another "What the FUCK??" from me? Great, so now I'm being told the ONLY way I can do this is if I have to make my stuff look simple, perhaps cute, and over all, annoying in my eyes? This makes me think about last semester, where I was being grinded for my stylizing of things, they were HORRIBLE. And it's led me to seriously, HATE DRAWING FUCKING STYLIZED CUTE SIMPLE CRAP?
I don't want to draw like that FUCKING MORON there you just mentioned right next to my work! I don't want to draw like that, or fucking I dunno, whatever you see nowadays on Cartoon Network or what not!
I DON'T WANT TO WORK IN CARTOONS. I WANT TO WORK IN COMIC BOOKS. CONCEPT ART! SOMETHING NOT "CUTE" OR "STYLIZED"!!!
I'm not saying ALL of it is bad, I do like some artists in animation still, and I will respect (most) artists who decided that's what "they want to do", but it's just NOT WHAT I WANT TO DO.
And the best part about this? Out of that conversation, I failed to grasp as to HOW I could have any chance of changing this destiny of having to painfully stylize my work to hell which I'm been trying to get away from...
(There's a quote which sums how I feel about this decision- Al Pacino can say it very well for me from Godfather III....
"Just when I thought I was out...they pull me back in!!" Hopefully my life will be minus the diabetic stroke he had moments after saying this quote.... )
What? No. I don't want to always suck at drawing/painting/illustrating. I want to get better. There is one major obstacle I'm going to have to learn to get around though. My figure/paint teacher is the exact opposite of hardcore ILL teacher, he's the kind old Scotsman who won't slam down hardcore on me EVER. He doesn't have a hardcore bone in his creaky fragile body, and I doubt he ever did.
And as for slamming down on myself 24/7 like I did last semester, that only served to make me MORE frustrated and ultimately made me PHYSICALLY SICK.
I don't know. But I need a second opinion, but I'm not sure where to get it from quite yet. This guy is seriously starting to depress and frustrate me, and when that happens ALL my classes will suffer yet again. NO. NEVER AGAIN.
It makes me think of another scene...sorta....although from Godfather II...
(I'm not sure what side I'm on though- I mean, I really like Michael because he wants his family to stay together, but at the same time....ehhhh...he was doing bad things so it's...debatable....I wonder which way it'll swing this time for me?)
I don't know. I don't expect replies to this. This is just brutal me again. But this is the way I deal, and I will not stay silent anymore. Seriously...if you think I'm a timid mouse or some slave that'll "yes suh" "no suh" you till the cows come home...THINK AGAIN!
Now I have to think about this during the rest of my day, where I have yet another crit to go through....GAWD DAMMIT.... Buy me a bottle of vodka and a bunch of Cuban cigars. Right now. I need to blur this out of my head some before it drives me insane because I'm expected to be over critical of myself.
Lately I've been feeling more than frustrated...it might be a good sign that I'm actually starting to break through that "wall" I've been stuck behind for the past 6 months or so art wise- that I realize that I am not hot cakes when it comes to my work- but I'm okay with that despite popular teacher opinion breathing their hot breath down my neck.
I've been reading a lot of comic books lately when I have a moment or two, looking at the artwork....in particular, I'm still looking at Bisley's work. Slowly I'm working on acquiring scans of every single fraggin Lobo comic out there.
Lobo's such a great character. I'm a sucker for anti-heroes...Wolverine...Batman....etc,etc. But Lobo. OMG. He beats them all. He's like Wolverine+Immortality+Biker+the belief that he is the best in the world. He kinda reminds me of my character Matt Barton. They're alike at their most nitty gritty...they're both muscleheaded assholes who like extreme acts of violence...but...it stops there, the details aren't the same. Lobo's a bounty hunter who is also was born a psychopath who killed off his own species for fun. Matt was born human, and chose to embrace his more demonic side (through blood)...also a psychopath, but he will not kill off ALL of his own race as then he would lose his source of entertainment....
Science would describe Lobo, as "primary psychopathy"- biologically caused- born that way.
Matt would be "secondary psychopathy"- a result of not only genetics, but also the enviromental he was surrounded by...he was molded slowly into a demonic being of a man(?)
This is all theoretical of course....I mean...I can't compare my own characters to freaking....the freakin Main Man...he's just too awesome for that. So yeah.
Dunno. Just thought about writing about what I've been up to aside from work. Yay.
Another day, and there's more arts about. Sooo...yeah.
Media Class, I have several projects going on. One is a scratchboard. It's coming along, it's almost done.
(But it'll look better when it's done....)
Then we've got these watercolors going on. Right now we're just doing test work. So I've got a cube, and a little test portrait done.
(Yes...the force will be with me. Always. LOL.)
You know what's really fun about watercolors? I own sooo many of them. My media teacher was slightly griping last class about how the paints the students bring in range from like, Winsor & Newton pro stuff (*drools*) to like, Crayola pan shit. So what did I do? Before I started my test pieces I made test swatches of EVERY SINGLE watercolor I own.
It was fun seeing the color variations by company...for example...compare the Cobalt blues from each set. the Winsor Newton stuff probably is the nicest looking, the Reeves stuff ain't bad, and the Sakura ain't too bad but might be a smidge too close to the other blue it has in its set....HUGE differences from company to company. I can see what my teacher was saying. I'll probably do my stuff in the Reeves paint because there's more colors to choose from, but, I do admit....the W&N stuff....*drools...*....it's great stuff on pans, and I imagine the tubes are like, kick ass.
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And then, more figures. I can start to see a little improvement....so this is a good sign. I tried out using charcoal pencils on the last one and my professor liked the improvements, and I liked it as well. I'll try working with that for awhile and see where it gets me. I also need to JOIN FREAKING FEWS already....I finally got my financial aid check from Ringling so I can afford to go now, now I just need to find out where it is and stuff. *shrugs*
Illustration and Painting are going okay, but er.....my last ILL project literally got ripped to pieces come crit time (digital printout though, LUCKILY. =/ ) so I don't know if I feel like posting it quite yet, and painting, I keep on forgetting to bring my camera to class so I can take pictures because I can't lug wet paintings home and all. Maybe next time.
Lots has been going on...yeah.....it's starting to get exciting/busy round here. But I can still post every now and again, when I get unlazy enough to actually take pictures (Mind you, I'm still too lazy to scan them all in...probably because it takes longer...durrrr....)
So yeah. Finally I got done with my first piece in one of my more "Illustration" classes.....it's okay...not brilliant....but eh, we all gotta start someplace.
Next, more fun times from figure class. I had a nice stomach flu creep up on me on Tuesday though, so I wasn't able to attend last class...but he's such a nice old guy I doubt he'll care TOO much- it was my first time missin his class.
The first two were 5 minute sketches, the last was....er...I think 40-60 minutes, I forget how many blocks of 20 min we took.
Then, what's going on in my other illustration class? Yeahhhh.....the political drawing is coming along DANDERSNATCH, but I probably shouldn't show it yet as I haven't turned it in officially. All I can say is that I've worked 18 FUCKING HOURS on this thing, and it's STILL not done yet. It's not even on color yet....ARGGGGHHHH....Well...I'll be getting...6 more hours worth of work on it in a little bit, this is my break time away from it...as at 8:30 I have that class....>_<....
Then finally, one day I bought brightly colored paper from the school store on clearance for a dollar. I drew some doodles on it. One (which I didn't like too much, ehh, but that's okay), I can't find right now,but if I do, I'll put it up. The other one is uhhhh...Xavier....enjoying a box of noodles. I dunno. It was a "early in the fucking clock" doodle. Kinda like I want to do now because I have class in 2 hours and I probably shouldn't sleep....
Later. I leave you with the huge massive Russian Army singing their national anthem.....why? I dunno, I find it amusing. Part of me is impressed because I've never seen a mass gathering of OUR soldiers singing like this....lol. I would love to be part of something like this....make you feel like you're part of one big family, I suppose....others may view this as some sort of socialism ala Soviet Union though...but...I kinda like it.
